It’s the silence in the warnings
That makes me go blind
Shoved around and when it’s dawning
It’s everything but kind
Maybe there’s a hidden truth
But it’s been gone for to long
So much hate and so much anger
But though everything seems wrong

My life was filled with fame and talent
I was beautiful yet balanced
So much better than the rest
Then I met a man – got married
And for 9 dammed months I carried
Around a child in my gut

He made, he made, he made this wasteland
He built, he filled, he sealed this wasteland
He is the king, the king the emperor of all U see
Aren’t U impressed by all of my ruins
Look at that black hole
Look at that black hole, that is me

We take a lot we give a lot
We don’t notice what we hide
We help a lot we give a dam
But we don’t show there are 2 sides

We hold on to the things we’ve earned
But in that process we forget all that we can learn
About who and what we are
But if we did – we’d go far

I often turn my face to the sky
I talk to whatever thinking it might like me if I say – HI…. ..
I used to ask myself the question who is it that I’m talking to
Why do I need to believe
There’s something more than just here and now
I guess somehow

It makes me feel better

I tried to call U yesterday
No answer on Ur telephone
I could only hear Ur voice say
Sorry I’m not home

I wish that U could see me now
I know right from wrong
Haven’t heard the voices now for days
I think they have all gone

People always say
Isn’t she nice
And some have even said U´re sweet as fuck

When U see me
U want to be my friend
That what U see is what U get
Well let me tell U
It’s all pretend

I’m really evil
I’m so evil

I cast a shadow upon the wall
Therefor I exist
And I breathe the same air as they do
Therefor I live
And I don’t think the same thoughts as him
Therefor I’m me
And I don’t believe in the same things as them
Therefor we are alike

Now I’ll court danger will U come?

I’m still living a normal life
I’m still scrubbing away the dirt
I’m still having fun with my friends
I’m still, I’m still

No I’m not bitter at all
I’m just having trouble to sleep that’s all
I still remember the “fun” we had

At first it feels warm, soft, nice and “fluffy”
U feel like U´re walking on air
But then it wares out, it drags U down
Deeper and deeper U fall

Must I reveal it all
Must I feel at all
Must I remember at all
I must I, why must I, why must I
Fill this big fucking hole in my soul
This big fucking hole in my soul

Mother, Mother
I hope everything’s alright
I don’t mean to bother
It’s just that I need U tonight

When my heart starts missing a beat
When the darkness comes to great me
Mother, Mother
Please tell me U might
See me

Thank U so much for talking to little moi
Thank U so much for being so friendly.
It can’t be easy having to take U’r time
With the ”small people”
who talk with real small words

But I really do
Appreciate it
I’m just me and U are so much more